I know all this really means is that it's the beginning of editing and rewriting. But for now. I'm going to say it again: I wrote a book!! Squee!
About a month ago, I really thought I was about done with writing. I had worked my tail off... I ignored my house, my kids, my husband and yeah, it wasn't pretty. I'm not going to write my next book the way I've written my first one. For my next novel, I'm actually going to write and do the laundry. I think, I hope... my husband prays.
But I digress, about a month ago... I thought everything for my novel was on paper, or screen I guess... And then I realized that the ending, well, it kinda sucked. I mean, the idea was good, but the execution? BORING! The pacing was off, the characters were tortured etc. I sent it to my cousin and also to the most amazing beta reader ever (who will remain nameless to protect her identity just in case she doesn't want her name mentioned here). Anyways, my cousin said it felt contrived, my beta reader liked parts of it, but not all of it.
Agh, let's just say that it had issues. And okay, I know it still does. It's a long way from perfect, but it's close. Or at least closer to my vision.
Last month, I had the opportunity to attend The LDStorymakers Conference in Layton, Ut. And I had the opportunity to pitch my book to a publisher. I wasn't sure that they would request it, in fact, i was pretty anxious about pitching the book to anyone at all. Like ever. But I figured I had flown all that way, I had paid to attend the conference and heck, why WOULDN'T I pitch it? So I did! And guess what... Before I was even finished giving my whole pitch she said she wanted to see it! I get butterflies just thinking about it.
I know this doesn't actually mean anything. I KNOW that. It's kind of like someone telling me my baby is cute. I know it doesn't mean anything... but at the same time, it feels SO good.
When she requested my full manuscript, it gave me motivation to keep writing and rewriting and editing and growing. The boost it gave my writing made the nerves I had in the pitch session completely worth it. Even if this book baby of mine never sees the light of publishing, the creative process of writing this book is maybe one of the best things I have ever experienced in my life. I feel so blessed to have been given words to tell the story in my mind.
I'm grateful to have a supportive family and friends who helped to make my dreams possible. I am thankful to the Jennifer Griffiths for telling me my story has merit and is publishable... She gave me my first big confidence boost and for that I am forever grateful. To Kaylee Baldwin, for reading my beginning and telling me it didn't suck, for giving me advice along the way and inspiring me to make changes she probably doesn't even realize. And most of all... Melanie Jacobson. Your books inspired me to begin writing in the first place, your advice gave me hope that I could actually do it, your invitation to attend conferences gave me the tools I needed to make it a reality and your friendship gives me motivation to keep on writing everyday.
Sigh... Now begins the long road of editing.